Labug, Tori, and Wendy. Thank you each for your support. Logically I know S is not the answer. My emotions were so out of control and that's why I ended up there. Definitely need to reassess alcohol's role in my life. By that, reduce if not remove. Sort of kind of Journaling. Hopefully W is just reacting to last night. Hopefully it's possible to make amends. For her wounds to heal. I'm a little more even kealed now, despite the overwhelming lost sensation. During the convo where W said she's done, I at least maintained and didn't beg or plead. I didn't react with anger. I tried to listen to those horrible words of being "done" and how she said she did meet with an L, our need to fix the house up to make it sellable; and how she is numb towards me and any chance of a R is dead. I know I said horrible things and that I'm not a horrible person. Maybe she will see that, doubtful though. Now to try and fix myself some more. Any good book / resource ideas?
