Andrew, sorry. It seems we're both having bad days, but I'm worried about what happened to you. See? Alcohol never brings anything good to anyone's life.
Anyway, I've also felt in the past that I didn't want to live--when I was at my lowest. I think in your case the alcohol and your feelings made it worse. But it's good you're going to see someone for help. You don't need to apologize anymore. Your W is reacting to last night's episode. She'll file if she wants to. All you can do is wait and see what she does. My guess is that she won't do it.
