I'm so sorry Andrew, that must have been scary. When can you see a counselor, this is not something to sweep under the rug. Get the help you need.

And yes, alcohol allows us to lose control of our thoughts. It's just not worth it.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss