Welp.. in a couple hours - 2012 will be over and it will be a new year.
I've been through so much in the past year. I can't believe how things have changed.
It's funny - there has been alot of hardship the past year, ALOT of tears. Times where my patience was tried.. Moments where I thought I was going to break...
... but now with the end of year approaching... all that really comes to mind is really how powerful love can be.
It kinda seems like an oxymoron seeing that I feel that even though I spent most of last year going through a Divorce.
But my life has drastically changed. The sadness has lessened. I laugh more.
I wish I could remember when I stopped acting as if - and it became my truth.
I wish I knew exactly when my heart changed.
Maybe it could help people on the boards. Maybe I would stop getting the "weirdo" look when I advice people to just love... lol.
But it's really the only thing that can explain the past year. I loved as best as I could and I appreciated the love from others in return (whether from friends or strangers) and really awesome things happened.
As for 2013, I have created some new goals. My focus is really in two areas.
1. - to shed the remaining layers of what was my marriage. That includes moving from my little apartment into something bigger and getting a new car. Both are reminders of what I had to SURVIVE... now I'm ready to THRIVE.
2 - To continue to learn HOW to love. For most of my life, it's been pretty one-dimensional for me.. but now I'm learning about detaching with love, tough love, graceful love and compassionate love. My absolute favorite has been to pay attention to people's LL and to fill it. It's not always easy but it has deepened my relationship with friends and family. Heck - it's even helped my work.
Of course I have other things - skydiving, learning a new language, learning electro - swing.. oh and dating
In the end, I am the author of my own story and if I want it to be a good book, I have the power to do so.
And to steal from 25 - It ain't easy, but it's simple. Some of the best given that I've been given and my new saying for 2013.
Happy New Years Everyone! Hope you GAL the sh!t out of next year and that you write your own "best seller"
xoxo
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
