Ah, so you DON'T have the bubonic plague! Just file that kiss away as a "little thing" for now, after enjoying it for what it was. Given enough time, you will see and hear things that tell you what is going on, a little bit. After over analyzing my sitch, I have found that there is, actually, though completely without logic, a "method to the madness". I guess if I can find a method, somehow that makes it less capricious, though it's not, oh, idk...<gak>
When I posted about anger, it was a response to this:
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He did mention in the most recent "discussion" that his anger had finally just simmered down to the point where he could talk about things. I'm not sure what that means exactly and honestly, I'm not really looking into it.
About your anger, it will begin to lessen over time, and you have already identified the root of it:
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I know I should expect this but the blow to my ego is still very real and it [censored]. Just when I think I'm doing well and then crap like this happens. Sigh.
That took my a while to get, and resolve, getting my protector ego under control. That's where the anger, resentment, FEAR resides, imo.
Hang in there!
T^2
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
Just file that kiss away as a "little thing" for now, after enjoying it for what it was. Given enough time, you will see and hear things that tell you what is going on, a little bit. After over analyzing my sitch, I have found that there is, actually, though completely without logic, a "method to the madness". I guess if I can find a method, somehow that makes it less capricious, though it's not, oh, idk...<gak>