Ok, last post of 2012: I am finding it difficult not to be with her to bring in the new year but I made sure I'll be surrounded by friends tonight. I've decided to go NC for, well, for as long as it feels right. I'm not going dark or anything and I'm sure we'll bump into each at the gym but I won't be texting her happy new year, or any other "happy's" for that matter. I was looking at myself in the mirror and liked what I saw. All my goals are moving along very well and my hope for us to get back together will be going on the back burner for a while. I don't want to think about that at least, if not until, I am truly happy with how my life is going, actually that's not true. It's not until I am happy with how my life is going, because I am happy about that now. It won't be, if at all, until I am happy...
