I am not looking forward to the festivities tonight. The stroke of midnight will be my 12th wedding anniversary and I am just sick with grief. This has always been a special time for us for obvious reasons and this is the first time in 13 years that I have not spent NYE with H. I am allowing myself to wallow in what will probably be my last wedding anniversary with H and after that, no more. Onward and upward. Good riddance, 2012! I expect a lot from you, 2013--so you'd better bring your big girl panties and come dressed and ready for the show!

You're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
-Christopher Robin to Pooh

Romans 12:12 Rejoice in your hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer.