D asked if I would could go horseback riding this week it is with a M couple that is trying to get us back together...I worry they might overstep their bounds and it might make W retreat but I told D that I would do it...I really miss my kids the week they are gone and they really miss me...It is hard for W because they count the days when they are there to when they will come back and when I have to hand them off from here they cry....I am really scared because if this ends in D then I will have to sell the house and maybe go back to school...in another state...sigh...
