Snodderly and T thanks so much for taking time to post! I am leaning toward not going.... that's how I am feeling in this moment anyway, if that means I'm here alone, then so be it. I have been praying my butt off about this, trust me, I feel like no definite answer yet, but I'm sure God will reveal to me what I should do. It just feels strange to me too, no one from his family has tried to talk to me in almost a year and a half and now I'm back to "being one of the family", let's not forget back when H told family about us trying to "work things out" he told me his family was "concerned". Wow, I would love, love, love to know the actual truth in any of this....
I never know what to believe from him.... I mostly think he's lying a lot of the time,and now he's told so many lies he's probably having a hard time 1. keeping them straight and 2. digging out of them... and the truth shall set you free. lol I wonder if he is even capable of telling the truth anymore....hmm.... well, I think the real him does seep out sometimes, like that day after he yelled at me about my dear friend.... I think the real him realizes he's screwing up a good thing, but monster won't let real him back in control.... man this all just sounds like the plot of a really bad scifi movie!
Anyway,I honestly would be waaaaay more comfortable if they came here, that would be the best option, but I don't know if he's even going to present them with that option, he may tell me he has but if he actually does is a different story. I would even be ok with the having lunch or dinner with his brother and his gf, at least I would be able to apologize....
My other thought is he's got to have it in the back of his mind when/if his family and I see each other again there will be talk, and it probably won't add up. IDK, not really my problem to worry about since I haven't done anything wrong. Remember he's the one who's been talking about other women to them, etc. So there's a whole lot of crazy lies and messed up MLC stuff that's happened.
As for the baby, my friend is scheduled to be induced tomorrow evening at 7, unless the baby comes before.... I will be staying with her kids until Monday around 4ish when her sister in law will be picking them up....
Yeah, the talks IDK, that was pretty much my plan, try and remain calm, don't take anything personality, rainbows and sunshine, and validation! LOL I'm going to do my best to do all of that and not point out he needs to continue his journey that I'm not on with him... or at the least if I can't keep my mouth shut do it politely as possible.
Any other thoughts are always welcome, thank you all.
