Walking the path to my own happiness

[mamabird]

Thanks Ruby, I'm getting stronger by the day.... that revelation that I had about my self-image was helpful because now I have a box to put all of that negativity in, and I have a reason not to believe it anymore: because it all started from one lady's dumb opinion. I just had never connected that before.

I had lunch with a wise old friend today. It was so wonderful. Seeing her just fills up my heart. Anyway, she said that maybe what I was meant to get from my R with H was the kids, and not really more than that. I had never thought of it that way.

I wish my parents were in the same place I was... Dad asked if H and I were going out New Year's Eve, Stepmom asked if I was back in the bedroom yet... Dad is still sending out "inspirational" emails. God bless them for trying, I really do appreciate it.

It's almost as if I'm looking at things from the outside in, and I can finally see H more for what he is than what he isn't.