okay..so i've been wondering about this whole dating thing. i believe that i am fully ready to casually date. that is it. i do not want any kind of commitment at this time. with that being said... heres what i have been wondering.
thru this process i have learned alot about myself. i have learned alot about other kinds of people and psychologies. i now know what to look for in myself and others. i almost feel like a personality snob..lol i am so compassionate and really enjoy people but, i go on these dates and it feels like i am in the looney bin or should be taking a trip there. i mean i have my shortcoming, but wow...
so because of all this, i know what i want in a partner and know i deserve it. i know i will also reciprocate these traits 100%. i really try to keep an open mind, but i am cautious to not blur something over to make it not so bad. like with the girl with the kids that i dont like. i could pretend that eventually i will enjoy them. i caught myself doing that. i asked myself if i could honestly believe that. the answer is no. so im not really talking to her much anymore. i do have this nagging fear that i am going to try to find something wrong with anyone i may date though. i know i have alot of baggage that comes with me. i have mine neatly put away, not thrown all over the lobby so to speak..lol
i know none of this makes much sense. thats why i wrote it though. so i could get it out of my head, and free up some space.
