SB, wish I was closer but it is a bit of a drive. All your emotions are valid, but you've rocked this part of your life, so I think you can handle a newborn! Your Ds are old enough to be a big help and if you open up, I think out be surprised at how many people would be willing to help.
I was a sahm too, so I understand the bitterness at having to put the baby in daycare. ((()))
