Finally approaching the starting line!

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Okay, I removed my faked profile from the dating site, not even ready to fake it. I do think about it though. I guess I just try to picture myself with someone else, and I can see it, but I don't really want it. I think it helps with detachment.

What I have the hardest time with is the thought of sharing my children with someone else. It doesn't seem fair to the children. They deserve one mom and one dad. I understand that my w is on a path of taking that from them. Actually who knows what path she is on, for all I know she could be trying to find her way home.

I know this journey is all about myself and I read posts about these deep profound changes, and I don't feel like that is me. Sure I am trying to be a better listener, a more supportive person, and I trying to let go of control of everything but me.

Other than that when I take a look at myself I don't see anything that jumps out that needs to stop. I am not a work-a-holic, nor a gamer. I have no addictions(maybe Monster Java energy drinks), I know I am a good father. I think I know where my marriage broke down, I also know that it would take both of us to right that ship. I also know that what I am trying to do as 1/2 of the marriage is to possibly get another chance. That's it, just a chance and that is not even a sure thing.

What I am getting at is, am I missing something? Are there questions I am not asking myself? I feel like I understand the concept of DB, and when I do post on others threads, it seems to be in line with the wise ones. Just trying to dig a little deeper, thanks for any feedback.