Man...how did I get myself into this situation...grrr
I read through the detachment thread. Thank you for posting that link. I realize that I am lacking a few things that keep from completely detaching. Some of them I have handled.
Sandi, what you say makes sense. I can see how she might interpret it that way. I was just hopeful that she was simply putting up a negative image to protect her own feelings. I had hoped that behind that wall of negativity, she was still wanting to return to me. With that being said, I guess I am living a pipe dream. perhaps it is time to let it go and simply move on with my life. Maybe I need to cut her off completely, let her find a place of her own to live and stop paying for any of her bills, just turn her out into the street? It just hurts so badly. It all happened so quickly and it just doesn't feel right.....yep. As my title implies, "in total despair"
