Hi guys, I really need some input. I'm not sure what I should do. I asked H about New Year's Eve and he said his brothers were talking about doing something, and said I could come too. I mentioned they could come here. He said he would keep me posted.
So fast forward to tonight, and he said they were thinking of doing something down that way because of his sister and the baby. I said oh I wasn't even thinking of her, I assumed she would be staying at home since she has a newborn. I am apparently invited to whatever they plan. Which could be at his one brother's apartment, or surprise, surprise his mother's house... he also made the point of saying he didn't know what his mother's plans were, they could be going out...
I told him I would think about it, I'm not sure how comfortable I am with that idea(I was trying to be honest, I think he was a little offended), since we are supposed to be "taking it slow" in his words. He said well they all said I'm still one of the family.... WTH?! He said his mother said that.... right.... and he said she often thought of calling me and didn't know what to say.... I don't know about that...the one who never called me back over a YEAR ago when I called her 2 weeks after BD ( I told him that surprised me since she never called me back then, H said he didn't know what I was talking about, gee there's that spotty MLC memory again, because I did tell him). I told him I would like to apologize to his brother, as that is the only relationship I have ruined (see very DB of me, taking responsibility for MY part in any downfall). He said a couple of times no drama. I started to get annoyed, I said I am one of the least dramatic people, I'm not being dramatic, I may be silly, a little crazy, and fun, but not dramatic. I didn't say this, but I was thinking, his family is the poster family FOR DRAMA!!!! gee, projection much.... Near the end of that conversation he said in an agitated tone, "we have a lot to talk about." And looked at me with a look that said I'm annoyed with you, or you're in trouble. (Well it USED to mean that anyway, so IDK what exactly he thinks he has to be upset with me about).
He also said his brother said we should go to dinner the 4 of us sometime (I guess soon, IDK). He was kind of a fountain of information, it was strange.... like the old H..... This past week he's been sharing a lot about things he's done (shooting wise) this past year. He even came in a bit ago to show me "something cool."
I feel like I'm being set up for failure... what do I even say to his family..... how do I tell him, yes I want us to work but you need to finish working on you???? I'm trying to remain positive, but to be honest I'm scared too....
