So its almost the end of the year and I'm not feeling any better about anything. I haven't spoken to H since 12/5 and I'm having doubts that anything good will ever come of this DB'ing. I'm missing him terribly but have the smarts to know that I have to let him go and do what he has to with the OW. I guess its the holidays that have gotten to me. Some days are ok and then there are some days that I'm just sad from morning to night.
I don't know how to be detached but still around so that he knows I exist. We don't have kids that are young that he has to call me about. He just can call them. And he's paying the bills without ever talking to me. I'm trying to be strong but I guess today is one of those days that I feel this whole journey is hopeless. Is this a common feeling even for those whose marriages came back? I'm still hoping that my marriage will come around, or should I say that H will come around.
I guess its one of those days.
M-59 H-58 2 S, 1 D 2 Gr. Ch. T 20 YRS M 17 YRS ILYBINILWY 4/21/12 Caught H and OW 5/25/12 H Left 6/5/12
"Do not regret growing older...It is a privilege denied to many."
