H's MLC started when BF murdered

[Raine]

I so miss the affection too. My H was super affectionate, and I know I took that for granted, even getting annoyed at time when he always wanted more, and I felt like, "seriously can't I just get this thing done, I've already kissed you three times!" How stupid of me. It is so hard right now to not just hug him when I see him. I know I would feel terrible afterwards if got involved with someone else and not D. I'd be doing exactly what he has done.

I totally get what you mean about signs. I feel like someone/something/karma is looking out for me, or likely looking out more for him than me. I still can't believe that I pulled up right behind him and OW in a drive through and that's how he was caught. Of all the places to go, and all the times, why did I feel the need to go there? I don't think that happened for me, that happened for him. The reality thrown into his fantasy scared the crap out of him. Had that not happened, he likely would have gone down a path with her of no return, of complete misery. I do feel a peace. I feel that I and my children will be okay. I feel that we will be happy, but that is irregardless of H.