Well, not sure what I'm doing now. I have given up on H. He is someone that no one recognizes anymore. He has changed in every way, except for his name. I know that he is never coming back. I'm pretty certain he will move out of the country to live with OW permanently.
He has done nothing but hurt me and our daughters. He is out of the country now. Has been for weeks. He's cut off all the money and refuses to take responsibility for anything back home. He blames our daughters for the strain in his relationship with them. He is not being A Dad to them at all. He says he wants a relationship, but wants them to forget everything that has happened. They're supposed to act like none of this nightmare ever happened.
I have petitioned him for a legal financial separation. I had to take out the loan to pay for Christmas presents, bday presents and food and necessities. This doesn't seem to bother him. His response was that I have money now and he's not giving me any money.
My daughters have pretty much written him out of their lives. He sent them necklaces for Christmas and didn't even write a note. Nothing. The necklaces were generic necklaces that had no personal meaning to them. He used to spend so much time searching for the right gift for each if them. They usually never got the exact same thing. Plus. There would always be a special note with the present. The presents this year seemed like something they would get from a distance relative that doesn't really know them. They were so disappointed and refuse to ever wear them.
So, I'm waiting for the separation papers to be served and receive money from him. I have been making new friends and finding there are many men out there who think I'm beautiful and interesting. It's nice. I haven't heard I was beautiful in such a long time.
I take one day at a time. I don't get my hopes up on anything. I'm trying to keep stability in my daughters' lives and let them know I will always be here for them.
