Got another call for a house showing, tomorrow. I had run into a realtor at the beach yesterday morning. He had insuinated that he had TWO! different people who were interested in my house and that I should switch the listing to him.
I used to be a realtor and actually found that to be infuriating. I told him as a former realtor I found it hard to believe that he was holding on to two potential sales in the hopes that I would eventually list with him. (A person who I have never seen before and one of about 5,000 licensed real estate agents on Oahu) And that if he really had customers interested in my house he should schedule a showing. What I didn't tell him was it would be a cold day in Hell before I listed with someone as unethical as he seemed to be.
The agent who is bringing the people tomorrow is a woman, so not this guy. Whose name I committed to memory.
I sure hope my VA job starts soon, so I have a better idea if I even have a hope of getting a full time job. I have been submitting applications for GS jobs. I finally had one that came back and showed me as "qualified" for a GS-9. Unfortunately I was not one of the top candidates. But that means I am at least doing the paperwork right and submitting all the correct supporting documents.
I am trying hard to continue to be the best person I can be. And for some odd reason people are seeing the difference in me. I had 5 different people tell me how beautiful I looked today. Funny, because I had thrown yoga pants and a tunic style blouse over my swimsuit so I could dash into the commissary. And I have sunscreen in my hair, and half a slap of make-up on.
My inner peace must be showing. I miss my X, but he has given his heart to someone else. And there is nothing for me to do but do what is best for me and keep moving on! I am lonely. But not alone. I have friends and family who love me.
I plan to spend New Years Eve on the boat. Some friends are coming over to watch Fireworks from there. I will sleep on the boat that night. I do not want to wake up in my bed here. The memories of last year, when my then H came to me and told me he wanted to stay with me are bothering me. That was the 6th time he flip-flopped between us. And when he told me that when he woke up with her New Years Day he felt icky and like he was making a mistake, I believed him. And took him back with open arms and believed his promises to 'work' on things.
Well, like MWD posted today on FB: Being present in body is not working on anything. And I let him walk all over me so many times. So I will wake up on the boat this New Years Day. I bet I won't feel icky. I bet I feel peace and contentment.
This year has flown by. And I sure plan to make the most out of next year! I hope everyone reading this does too!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
