The not being attractive part is harder than I ever thought.
I was always very confident in my ability to be sexy to H. He looks at me like some conflagration of our kids and his mother and it really suc-ks. The OW has fake boooobs and is covered in tattoos and I really never, ever, ever thought I would feel unattractive to H. It's kinda blown me off my foundation--along with a lot of other stuff! But, I've never felt so frumpy and ugly in my life. I even have doubts I will EVER feel sexy again. Or, attractive again.
It screeews with you. And, I'm getting more honest about the sexual part of this affair--she represents something I don't.
Still, I know from some book that the affair sex is not what the LBS thinks it is. Maybe I'll read that again. Patterson?
Hang in,
Heather
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
