Changing Directions

[FloydMan]

Hey RLA, I know it does….because we care. You are no doubt a beautiful person that is hurt and confused. Breakdown is right I think in that you need to ask yourself those questions.
You don’t seem to be looking for coaching but rather looking for validation and approval, which is okay too and you need that. But if you want coaching, that is going to entail challenging and some pushing. If I did not accept the pushing, challenging and coaching, I would have been divorced a year and a half ago.
I have walked/am walking in your H’s shoes. I was not a ray of sunshine either…leading up to the A and during the A and certainly not after. I was frustrated by M but never dealt with it. So was W and she never dealt with it. That is both our fault. It has taken me so long and still working on me. We cannot be ourselves amongst the turmoil. I used to be the “class clown” type, confident and self-propelled. I am getting there and you will too. However, I am not going to totally give up until we are out of the house and a D is done even though some days I say to myself, “Ahh “eff” it!”
I also look at your tag lines in your auto signature:
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.

"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page

These are brilliant and have kept me going.