A slow few days. Christmas day was OK, very different for all of us but we survived My kids loved their gfts and we lit a candle and put it next to my mums picture just to mark the 4 years since she passed. I must admit the lonliness I felt was overwhelming at times but everytime Ifelt it coming on I made myself busy.
My friend and her bf and son came for dinner (they love my cooking) and that was really nice. At bedtime my kids gave me a kiss and said "we had a great christmas mom thankyou" I think they knew how I was feeling
It hurts so much to think that he had christmas with her and her theiving kids, when he has 3 of the most beautiful, loyal and loving kids EVER right here. I don't think I could ever forgive him in any way shape or form, I don't get it I dont think I ever will.
I took S13 to the doc's yesterday as he still has a really high fever and do you think H has called to see how he is? Nope!!! Right now I dont give a sh!t how hard his childhood was, he's doing the same without the physical abuse...but its all mental and emotional to his kids.
Thats how I'm feeling for today Just heard a song "I'll pray for you" look it up it sums up my thoughts for today.
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My kids loved their gfts and we lit a candle and put it next to my mums picture just to mark the 4 years since she passed. I must admit the lonliness I felt was overwhelming at times but everytime Ifelt it coming on I made myself busy.
Just heard a song "I'll pray for you" look it up it sums up my thoughts for today.