But what can I do? It's not my nature to be a b!tch. I was thinking about writing about my feelings again and giving the letter to him when I see him on Saturday. Maybe it's bc I'm so sad now. I told myself I would have to come up with an alternative, so what am I going to say? Let's keep the status quo? He said he wanted to be free to date other women and that's why he filed. I thought about proposing a legal separation, but then he'll say the same, that he's not 100% free. I wonder. All these things are going through my head.
I was doing so well, but then the email from the L came and I realized this IS HAPPENING. I even googled whether I can just not show up to court. I don't want to do this.
