Trying really hard to be Thankful today...

[Sweetbriar]

My H is a mess! That is for sure. Which brings me to the question....why would he text ME on Christmas Eve with his sob story and not OW, who is supposed to be giving him all the support he needs right now? Also, another question...if this is what he chose and he wants to think its the best choice, than why does he not "act" like he is great when he is around me or text me? I would think that he would act like he is doing wonderful to prove that his choice was the best one?

I know that I am doing that...whenver he texts or comes around, Im all smiles, and I dont lead on at all that it pains me just a tad to see him face to face.

H mentioned to D that the "firsts" are always the worst..so maybe he is writing off his sadness this year on it being the "first" winter, Christmas, etc.. I have to say, that although the firsts are hard, I dont know that he will ever be happy if he doesnt get himself some help. Im truely concerned about his emotional state. Is is normal for the WAS to become MORE depressed than when he left??