Still working on me

[sweetbabyred]

H called before I went to work today, apologizing for not getting my ornaments to me before Christmas. He was driving back to town (6 hours away) and had them in his car.

I told him he could just leave them on my doorstep and I'd get them when I got home. He declined, saying he'd lost a package at his apt and didn't want them stolen. I live in a gated community, so I was ok with it, but whatever.

I then told him he could put them in my patio. It is fenced and no one could see them, but he was afraid they'd break. I'm not sure how that would happen, but I didn't want to argue.

So it seems like he wants to see me when he drops them off. I'm not sure if that's because he does want to see me or if he needs me to sign the divorce papers and just doesn't want to mention it to me.

At this point, I don't think anything would surprise me.

Although I do wish he'd come out of his fog, mostly so he can fix his own life, and part of me wishes he'd want to try to make it work with me, I know that I'll be ok on my own.

And if H is done, I'd really like him to file soon so that I can morally feel okay about moving on too. I wouldn't rush into dating, but I'd like to have the option.