Oh, last thing:

Quote:
I want to feel happy like that again.


Tell me what's stopping you without using "H" in the sentence.


Few things are stopping me right now:
- Not having a clear foreseeable future
- Not feeling at peace with my sitch
- Feeling trapped for the time being
- Financial worries

In a nutshell, I feel like there's a bit of a dark cloud hanging over me, and I'm trying to get out from under it. It would be very, very, VERY difficult for me to be blissful under our current conditions - me having to live w H. I am trying to learn to just ignore him, and that gets me to the point of stable and functional, but hardly blissfully happy.

I am ready to embrace happiness though, and I am starting to walk down the yellow brick road as we speak. Seeing the goal, feeling the goal and knowing that being here is not working anymore is a great step forward. I know that my happiness is really up to me.


Me54, H53
M 23, T 25
S20, S18
BD: April 2024
Moved out: August 2024

Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.

"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page