Boxing day...the anticipation was much worse than the reality. The events of boxing day last year when H dropped his bomb were on my mind of course but I found myself thinking mostly about how far I have come in just one year. In many ways it has been an amazing year - I found strength and resilience I never knew I had, my relationships and friendships have developed, my social life has flourished. I have also thought long and hard about myself, with the help of my IC and some good friends ans good books and BB like this one. I have learnt a lot about me, H, our relationship, all my relationships and about life and my life philosophy. Don't get me wrong, I still hate what has happened, I am embarrassed and humiliated, I am confused and bewildered by H decisions and behaviours but I now know I am going to be ok whatever happens
"There are things I didn't want to happen but have had to accept. Things I didn't want to know but had to learn, And people I couldn't live without but have had to let go"
Not sure who the quote is from but that was 2012 for me in a nutshell. So now onto whatever 2013 has in store!!
Me46, H49, D17, D11 M22, T25 BD Dec26 2011 he moved out Feb29 2012
