I am preparing myself for her to leave. Preparing as best I can. As I said too, I have questioned if I want her in my life after finding out about the kiss and sexting.

She feels I violated her sexually. I feel she violated me emotionally. She claims that what I've done is so much worse. Pretty much, I told her to me they're on the same level.

I told her I wanted a fresh start. The closest I can get to explaining myself is like DB's idea of "divorce your old marriage and enter your new marriage with the same partner." Yes, we aren't married but it's like that to me. I told her I wanted the truth b/c I have just known something was "off" for a long time.

So I've explained my standards. If she decides to stay with me then no lies, kisses, sexting, or stuff like that. It also means I trust her (no snooping) and correct my behavior that bothers her...the controlling aspects. If she breaks my trust it's over and if I break hers I'm sure the same applies. So that's my standard if she wants this and if she decides she doesn't want it then I'm going to calmly take the ring back and just wait for her to move out.

One of my biggest issues, one of the hardest to resolve, is my attachment to the kids. Especially the baby.

“People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be.” Abraham Lincoln