When tapestries of life get tangled in the loom.

[MrBond]

"Both, I feel that the tension and anger is less severe."

Because you backed off.

"I don't know, I feel things are meant with less "punishment" for me. And I understand where she comes from, in a way."

No you don't. You keep painting yourself as a victim and that she is being mean to you or punishing you. She's not. She stated she wanted a D. She told you why, very clearly and hasn't wavered from it. All this talk about "punishing" you is in your head and driven by your ego.

"And I wanted her to say it, that she meant to patch things up between us.
(by the way, she didn't respond to that email )"

Very egotistical of you. That's why she doesn't want to get back together. You've shown and are showing that your attitude hasn't changed which is why she's still pursuing the D.

"I feel as if she did have reasons..."

Yes she does and she stated them very clearly.

"I don't want to say I'm innocent, and other people don't know all about our couple, but several guys and girls told me I was kind of a "perfect", "dream" husband (sic)."

Lose the attitude. You still think of yourself as a "dream guy". A dose of humility will help you.

"I repeat here that her reasons for leaving were, true, existing,"

Yes.

"but on a scale from one to ten of touchiness and easily offended, her reasons were not serious serious reasons for D."

To you they weren't serious. When are you going to get that? It was important to HER. So you are still dismissing her feelings.

"She hasn't tried ANYTHING to save M. No counsellor, no big discussions with me, no pastoral help, no nothing. She just took a decision and wrote that email."

Because quite honestly, she probably did try to talk to you and you dismissed her every time. You're doing the same here so I can see that happening. I'm sure she thought that if she brought up counseling, she thought you would have scoffed at her and dismissed your M as being great. That's how she felt. Don't you get it by now?

"Very cold thought and emotionless choice."

Again that's where you're wrong. People who do that have usually tried in some way to repair things. They may not communicate it well, but they try. Then after attempts have failed in their mind, they start walling themselves off emotionally from the other person. It wasn't something she thought of overnight. Your letter from her stating her reasons, proved that. She had VERY valid reasons.

"Yes, kind of like, "Here's Son, it's your turn, see you next week, bye", type of arrangement."

BS. Start talking to him more often. Tell her that she needs to at least be in the room so that there is some sort of interpreter for you since you're not there.

"Correct. Her behaviour then was too nice to be true. I got tricked."

You weren't "tricked". She was just being nice. Period. Take it for what it's worth.