NOw I am sending you good vibes with your H at home, stay strong, stay cool, stay Nero!
hey hi- geeez - i'm so wacky, i think i just wrote toyou a minute ago n your thread- and i can't remember if i just read yours or sent mine. duhhhhh.
thanks- i'm trying to grow some as well. maybe the sad truth is that we accepted them and every single little quirk and fault because that is what love is to us- and we've spoiled them.
i'm not saying they get to say it or use it (against us). it stinks and is plain ole wrong. maybe that's the upshot of human love anc caring- some people on the receiving end just take it for granted and end up sucking it up and nothing is ever ENOUGH?!]\\\\
OH WELL- today it's his problem - his neurosis. i'm just riding along- have eaten two sticky buns loaded with sugar and nuts al5eady- and am full (tho, AWARE) OF ALLLL THE wonderful mucnchies around here needing attention.\
i'm such a hopeless junk food addict - well, sweets really and goodies - perfect christmas attitude rite?
you're rite - we can do it and we will. grow ba_ls and all- but we have to VERY CAREFULLY make sure to retain our natures that let us believe in love, kindness, ultruism- and all the things that make us who we are.
i find with my mother- i'm really making a point and fightng hard to be kind and understand the problems of age. the bit where she's just a snottty person and HAS ALWAYS enjoyed the fight and makng some poor sap squirm- may seem newish to me- apparently has alwsy been there for years and years - i'm just obvlious.
ANYWAY- MY POINT - I THINK we can ball up but still retain the best of our natures - even if it involves A HELL OF ALOT MORE covering up our soft parts- that might be crucial too- self-defense of a most basic nature.
if our only crime with these guys (all the usuals aside) is tht we loved too darn hard and too thoroughly and too slavishly- well, we can work on the slavish- maybe still keep the rest??? i'm thinkng that might be me-
i can become more patient- detached and diplomatic. i'm not sure i want 5to let go of my notions of what true love is?
i'm still trying hard to participate in believing about hte lighthouse- mlc and the bit of "this is the "thin" of thick and thin.
we'll see how that goes. glad you're STILL STANDING>
