I dunno - I'm actually pretty lost. I'm going to sell my under-water house so that my husband can finally file and get it over with. I guess I'm hoping that once my marriage is fully past-tense, I'll finally be able to stop wishing I could reconcile it. I'd like to say I'm going to be happy and that I will regain my faith that lifelong commitment is more than just a crap-shoot, but I have no idea how to make myself FEEL or BELIEVE anything. I know how to DO things and showing the house/ making extra payments toward the principal, those are things I can DO. At some level I've been holding on to hurting 'cause, as I said above, that's all I have left. I think I chose that and therefore it must be possible to stop choosing it. Other than that, I'm pretty lost.
M: 43 H: 44 M: 12.5 if the 5.5 year separation counts Bomb (I dropped it): Dec '07 H said finit: Jun '10 I moved on: May '13
