My Fears in GALing

[newman7977]

Hey all just wanna wish everyone a merry Christmas!

Today I just wanna be humble. And told my W I'm sorry if I ever made her neglected all those years. She wished me merry Christmas in return. I gave her a little hug and she reciprocated.

We opened presents and seem like she will keep the purse I bought her.

I took the lead then and ask that we all to go to church. We all went. Was really great because we haven't really gone to church since s3 was born. And the usher ask d17, s13, and myself to do the offering. It's a Catholic Church and if you are not familiar, this is part of the mass when after the collection of money, the host (symbol body of Christ), the wine (blood of Christ)and money basket is taken to the priest. We got selected out of all the people there. I was really flattered and thinking to mysel, how did you know the pain in my heart.

I felt that God reached out to me today. The gospel that the priest touched on is about being in the dark weather in marriage or kids, or jobs. And the analogy of in the past few weeks preparing for the birth of Christ, there were some masses, possessions and prayers that are in the dark because it was at nigh. But despite being in the dark, that even a flicker of light overcome darkness in the possession on the dark streets. Priest was referring to "posadas".

That really touched me. Kind of how my life is right now, I'm in darkness and I feel that if I let it to high mighty above, he will shine me that light and guide me.

I'm not a super religious person but today was somewhat "miraculous". And I really felt some strength to keep going.

Lots of positive signs today. Perhaps a flicker of light in my darkness.

Newman