Today is not going bad, def better than I thought. H came home at 7a after a night of drinking and smoking w/ea's friends, without ea. He said it was the only way to get out of his dep, he felt it lift right after he left our house, wooh wee!
We spoke a little about how he could be handling life better and all it has to offer. We talked about how we/he handled some of the things that he is angry about. He doesn't blame me, he blames his weak character and the world.
I let it go, crawled into bed, called all my kids to jump in with me, and watch A Christmas Carlol movie, while eating stocking goodies before breakfast.
H retreated back to our room once we all gathered into the kitchen to cook, and has been there since. I'm sure he will not join us for dinner but that's fine. I have 3 boys with 3 girlfriends,a D with her friend, myself and our cool dog who loves having company.
I am going to learn to be without him if it kills me. I have not gone to him, feed him, or sat with him, which is a big thing for me!
Good wishes for all! Enjoy! dm
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
