Trying to love myself. Always been a challenge since I put everyone else before me. And no, not too new agey for me.
We alternate weekends so this will be mine coming up. The tricky part is that her SIL is flying in so we all generally hang out together. Then again, maybe that's what I need to do even more so.
So, yesterday I wad in a sad mood despite celebrating Christmas eve at our home with W's family. The SIL that lives here even asked how come I was down. Told her it was b/c of a cold I do have. W actually gave it to me. I think a part of the sadness is due to the possibility of this being our last family Christmas. Near the end of the night I was somewhat accepting of that. That ill be fine if it is.
Last night sleep wise was rough. S7 kept coming down every hour. W had a coughing fit and then S2 woke up early. What else do you expect. . The weird thing is W and I were snuggly extra tight. She even held me for awhile.
So we opened present and what not. W actually made the comment of how, "thoughtful" I am with gifts. Did you tell her to use that word? We've been lounging and are getting ready to head to my family's. While getting dressed (me), she made the comment of how I am building mass / size to my upper body. You would think that I'd be on cloud 9, but I'm not. I'm allowing her / her phone to get to me. As I write this I know its my choice. I need to change that. I need to have fun. So we'll see.
Merry Christmas Everyone!
Let's each hope we get that Christmas Miracle we all have been DB'ing for.
. The weird thing is W and I were snuggly extra tight. She even held me for awhile. 
