I wish this was a happy day. Christmas should be a time of happiness and family. I'm riddled with sadness. I'm doing my best to remain in a good mood and try not to show that inside I feel like I'm falling apart. Last year was a great Christmas. Just me,her and the kids was honestly the first Christmas in years that I felt like I belonged. This year I'm having to hang out in the bedroom while they are up there watching romance movies. I wanted to go spend Christmas with my family but my mother let me know they are going to spend it with some friends. My friends are busy today understandably. The gym is closed. So I just get to sit here with World Of Warcraft and be alone with my thoughts. While the other guy is trying to get her to come see him today because he's all alone for the holidays. Divorce Busting is not working so well for me today. Last night we were watching a movie and she randomly said "Were pretty much broke up. Your job is to try to woo me now" I thought to myself when your doing all this I'm not going to try to woo you. She then proceeded to say "I don't even know if I can be wooed right now" I thought to myself well the other guy is doing a fine job of it and you don't even get it that all he wants is sex from you even though he's been blatant that he likes to smoke weed,will cheat on his girlfriends and has actively talked about wanting to sleep with her. He's smart..genuinely smart. Intelligence is more important to her than someone who is pretty smart,hones and faithful. She actually told me that. I know of the guy. I've met him a few times. I do renaissance fighting (bamboo swords) every once in awhile and have sparred off with him a few times (and dominated him I might add) and he always seemed like a nice guy so for him to do this is really opposite of what kind of character of man he is. I just don't know what to do today
