I'm proud of you RT, you are getting stronger every day.Your right. it's just another day, we put the pressure on ourselves. I spent several Christmas's and other holidays at sea on a Submarine and it did not hurt as bad as this. I still get to see my children and interact with them. The difference is me putting the pressure on me.
Stay strong RT, today was my day without the kids. I had some friends invite me over for dinner. We ate Tamales and played Apples to Apples. i actually relaxed and forgot about her for a bit, it was nice. When I got there I told my friend that I felt like a beggar and she was more than gracious to me. Find someone to play some games with, get out and let your mind relax a bit.
When your brain starts spinning think of me trying to cheat at Apples to Apples lol. Oh I did not win by the way.
LOL!! I rock at Apples...text me covertly next time :P
Merry Christmas to you SG and I am glad it was okay, it is turning out okay for me too
MY dad said my estranged brother sent an email to them and he is forwarding it (because it is strange lol)
I said good, it will be nice to know someone's life is more screwed up than mine.
He said yours is not screwed up and you are the most important person in your children's lives. You take care of yourself first so you can take care of them.
He said yours is not screwed up and you are the most important person in your children's lives. You take care of yourself first so you can take care of them.
I love my Dad
Sounds like a pretty smart guy....I'd take his advice
Ruby - well it's nearing 12 pm now where you are. I hope you had a wonderful morning with the kids. In the end, that's what it's all about. You live for the kids.
I have to agree, you sound stronger. It is amazing how we all eventually get to this place, even though at the beginning we think we are going to literally curl up and die. But we do it, day by day.
Hard to have no expectations. I know I was a little disappointed this morning too... my boys came downstairs and said "Mom didn't get anything in her stocking!" Of course, I wasn't expecting anything, but it didn't make it any less painful. Last year my H put an iPod touch in there and then said, "Oh that's not for you. It's for the house." Still stings... But anyway, Wednesday is another day, right?
love you Ruby!
Me54, H53 M 23, T 25 S20, S18 BD: April 2024 Moved out: August 2024
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.
"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page
Hi Ruby, how is it going? Thinking of you ((((( )))))
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
Gave H his gift. He said thanks, looked outside to see he had sisters car. Said where is yours. I lent it to a friend.. He brought his GF here for Christmas..
Kids won't meet her but she is here. This hurts me so much, who the hell is my H I don't know anymore
I can do this. Going for a run and I will stop crying and it hurts. I guess I did have expectations after all. Maybe for him to be I don't know? Who I want him to be?
I'm going to be fine, but I have to keep repeating that I don't make other people's decisions.
Ruby - well it's nearing 12 pm now where you are. I hope you had a wonderful morning with the kids. In the end, that's what it's all about. You live for the kids.
I have to agree, you sound stronger. It is amazing how we all eventually get to this place, even though at the beginning we think we are going to literally curl up and die. But we do it, day by day.
Hard to have no expectations. I know I was a little disappointed this morning too... my boys came downstairs and said "Mom didn't get anything in her stocking!" Of course, I wasn't expecting anything, but it didn't make it any less painful. Last year my H put an iPod touch in there and then said, "Oh that's not for you. It's for the house." Still stings... But anyway, Wednesday is another day, right?
love you Ruby!
It does hurt, doesn't it? Filled my own and my D did too. I love that child, with all my heart
So...I screamed and cursed and cried and then I ran.. In the midst of running a little peace and clarity set in. So I sent this text:
"Thank you for not lying. It hurts but I can't tell you how much it means to me that you didn't lie."
We have had trust issues for so long, H and I and he knows that his lying bothers me a lot. So I thought out of this crappy crappy situation, this was a very positive thing. Mi know he said friend, but that was in front of kids, but I knew what he meant.
He was in driveway and I said " oh, I see". And shut the door. He drove away.
After this was the crying and yelling, running and texting lol. I don't know if it was endorphins or the fact that maybe I am detaching a bit more everyday that I feel okay. Not great, but okay.
Obviously she is not at SILs house but also is obvious they all know and have met her. This becomes a little awkward now, I guess. Must find my inner Audrey Hepburn I guess. Grace, think grace, Ruby.....
Yes, inner Audrey is a good inspiration. I try to think about Grace too. I try to think, how would I like the world to see me? And it certainly isn't as the naggy b!tchy wife that I was for so many years. Would Hot Guy want that woman? I think not!!!
Me54, H53 M 23, T 25 S20, S18 BD: April 2024 Moved out: August 2024
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.
"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page
