snodderly~ Looks like her control knows no bounds.... I was up at 7:30 and H came in asking if I was awake, I said yeah. He gave me a card, the card had a gift card to my favorite store in it. So that's a definite improvement from last year... Anyway, I gave him his gifts, I got him some little things of his favorite candy, and a shooting DVD he had wanted. When he was opening it I could see the depression trying to peek out in his eyes, looked like he could cry, but didn't, instead, mechanically thanked me and said I shouldn't have done that. I told him I love Christmas and buying gifts for people.

A few minutes before 8 he asked me which gift bags were the ones he was to take with him. I showed him and said, "You're leaving already? Wow that is an early dinner." His reply, "Mom said no one is allowed to open anything until everyone gets there." I said, "Well have a great day," pasted on a smile and went back to wrapping the last gift I had to wrap. On the inside I was filled with such a sadness and disbelief at the sheer heartlessness, creepiness, etc of that woman.... Does she not realize her children are all adults, and it's healthy for them to have relationships and plans that aren't with her.... you know like, um, gee, with their spouse..... Oh wait the only one married is my H.....gee she almost has them all back to super enmeshed, co-dependent,yes mommy robots.

Before leaving H said good luck with the baby. I thanked him said I don't have to do anything, just be there to watch the other kids, and she may not have it today. I think that may be his rationalization for why it's ok to leave me alone today... you know, I had to go to mommy's Heather may have to go watch someone else's kids... IDK, whatever lies he has to tell himself, I would have really hoped he would have started to grow up by now, but if nothing else at least have gotten half a clue.

After he left, I couldn't help it, I had a crying spell. The control that woman has on all of them is so sick.... and sad.... he has so many issues to work through with her, it looks like that isn't going to happen... she says jump, he says how high.... meanwhile I get pushed aside like useless garbage.... yea.... anyway, I will not let her ruin anymore of my Christmas. I just had to get that off of my chest. I need to go put the ham in the oven and then icing the birthday cake I made for Jesus (a family tradition I decided to keep). smile Oh and I would cook late, but I want to have dinner, and seeing as how there is no telling when that baby will arrive, I'm cooking early.... and you know what, let him eat leftovers, my food is waaaaay better than anything his mother cooks. One more thing he can miss when he leaves me.... for his mom, cause that's what I feel like is happening... (EW!!!)... LOL wink

beingme~ I really don't know why he wants to talk, I mean he said he was willing to try and work on our M, but I don't know what that means to him since he is very much still in denial that there is anything wrong and he still seems to think I am the source of all that is wrong in his world.

Also with his new found "close relationship" with his mother aka the puppet master, it's hard to tell where his head is at, but I'd say it's safe to say it's still NOT in reality....

At any rate, I really hope everyone has or is having a wonderful Christmas! You all deserve it that's for sure!! grin