Thank you for stopping by, Subguy! Good questions. I love him as he is, but our M cannot work if he behaves the same way he's behaved all these years. He never really prioritized our M, and that would have to change. He would have to learn how to give, how to compromise. He needs to learn about what really matters in life. So if your Q is, would I just jump back into my M, my answer is no. I think I might've asked the same Q to Ruby, and she said she would take things slowly. I feel the same way.
It is true that, when on DB mode, we are focusing on ourselves, but our S's will have to also do their work (eventually) for the M to survive.
I still see him wanting to finalize the D. As I said before (thanks to Anita Morjani) I won't fight it anymore. Will just let it be. She says that if you let something negative "be" sometimes it'll dissolve in its own weakness. Do I hope this happens? Yes.
Attachment? I've always gotten an F in this subject. Haven't been able to detach. I've done a ton of GALing, and I do take care of myself, and I'm a much better person than I used to be, but I still think about him all the time and love him the same. I still feel happy when I talk to him and sad when he leaves. I miss him every day. I know I need to work on this, esp with the D coming up. Don't even want to think about it bc my stomach feels all tight and heavy, and fear starts to creep in.
