I'm proud of you RT, you are getting stronger every day.Your right. it's just another day, we put the pressure on ourselves. I spent several Christmas's and other holidays at sea on a Submarine and it did not hurt as bad as this. I still get to see my children and interact with them. The difference is me putting the pressure on me.

Stay strong RT, today was my day without the kids. I had some friends invite me over for dinner. We ate Tamales and played Apples to Apples. i actually relaxed and forgot about her for a bit, it was nice. When I got there I told my friend that I felt like a beggar and she was more than gracious to me. Find someone to play some games with, get out and let your mind relax a bit.

When your brain starts spinning think of me trying to cheat at Apples to Apples lol. Oh I did not win by the way.

You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.