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When you can't control your thoughts, I call it the hamsters on the wheel. You just can't get off, it's mindless, exhausting and non productive. I do two things: exercise and I got an anti anxiety med. from doc.
know what you mean. I call it the crazy train. I believe in the excercize...kept me sane for many years. I ran 2 miles on thurs or Friday, 1st run in years, although my small business is in athletics and am in decent shape, it was the 1st excercize for ME in a LONG time. I felt like Forest Gump and wanted to keep going, but turned back after a mile to make sure I could get home. Unfortunately I tweaked something in sole of my foot, so haven't been back. Hoping sedentary Christmas takes care of it.
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I really don't have an addictive personality, so am okay with it
That's where my concern is. I have believed for years that I might have addictive personality. Never to substances but to actives/hobbies. When I discovered alcohol in college I dove in deep. Had myself worried I would be addicted. Quit cold turkey when I beleived it might be affecting performance in a sport I was definitely "addicted" to. I think I was 21 then. When I was about 25 I trusted myself to drink casually again. I find something I like and obsess about it. It's a double edge sword. There are a few things it feels good that I'm really good at, but at what cost?

Merry Christmas to you, and everyone, too!

And...the grin IS back on my face. smile W instigated a really great R convo today, which lifted a LOT of fog for me. I'll post about it in a day or two, but she's coming over early, spending long day visiting family together. Going to bed early to be my best tomorrow!

Me 46 W 43
S 21 D 18 S 17
M 22 yrs
Discovered OM 9/10/12
W moved to sister's 9/15/12
W moved to OM 9/27/12
Tried to DB until 7/13
W filed 10/7/13. Did not serve.
I counter filed 12/2/13.