First time in 19 years not together for Christmas. First time not with my kids at Christmas Eve. This [censored]. It is soooo wrong. A little lonely. I think I bought too much with the kids (for here). I don't think I am getting very much, if at all. There is too much hate in her. She has been particularily nasty the past few days. The example set for the kids is terrible.

M17 yrs.
me49
xW47
d15
d11

BD1-Jul/11(Affair found out)
Therapy 9 months (tried 2)
BD2- May/12(sep)
Court Jul/13 - I got 50/50
Sold home - Aug/13
Court #2 - Dec/13
Court#3 - Apr/14 ... She lost again
We settled.