Journaling: The night was without issue, I did hear h wake up at 3a, look for me and say to himself ''ohhh your in here". He has said in the past to never not sleep in my own bed because of him.
He went to the kitchen and started to clean up some cookie mess I put aside for the morning to clean. Once I woke up he finished in the kitchen cleaning it from top to bottom.
He still has yet to talk to any of us, and has retreated back to out room. The hustle of all of us cooking breakfast and talking about this eve is buzzing into my room as he lay watching the history channel.
I can't get over how he can just check out, I fully understand it's not "him" but there has to be a point were he breaks down, asks for help, can't take it anymore. Even my bipolar uncle was like, I would have broke down by now, and ended up in a hospital.
Oh well, plenty to do, it's a challenge, but I am trying not to let it be hurtful, just imagine what he is really going through inside, it's more than I want to know!
Peace, love, and hope.....DM
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
