Bad times here. I feel like any progress made has been erased - and then some.
H talked for over 2 hours last night. Telling me how
he needs ow in a c capacity right now because it helps him work through things
I have never fulfilled him.
How he wants to be "in love" again
ILYBIDLY
"WE ARE NOT SPLITTING UP AND NEGATIVELY IMPACTING THE KIDS"
It seems like when ever I get on a quasi-even keel he "shares" his feelings with me.
Doesn't expect me to react to what he says. No matter how hurtful - if I do, then he tells me that "this is why I need an ow, because I obviously can't talk to you"
Says the fact that he comes home signifies his commitment.
I told him I would prefer he just go. He won't because "he's not walking out on his children"
I can't see how I will survive 2 years of this. I can barely contemplate 2 hours.
I have my stupid job at least. But boy is it AWFUL. Management gave a ten minute lecture the other day to all employees "reminding us of our 'place', that managers are not friends to staff" Really? I'm 44 years old and working fast food - think I need to be reminded of my status?
Just feeling at the bottom of a deep deep well right now.
Thanks for the vent.
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
