The green green grass of home. (Part 2 )

[Soul.Searching]

Thanks everyone. It really does help. I think I have came and read your replied about five times already.
It's tough, really tough. This has not been a good Christmas Eve. It's going on for 9:00pm. I'm not excited to be Santa this year. I'm trying, so so hard but I just can't get there.
Both of my kids have been emotional, S8 said he wasent excited because he has had heaps of Christmas's before. I'm sure it's actually because of H.

Is it wrong of me to just want this all over and done with?

H called earlier to ask me to get the kids to take something with them tomorrow.
He made a point of mentioning that he couldn't take about Santa at that time.
Really??? He wanted to let me know he is spending Christmas Eve with OW and her children??? That's just shallow, very, very shallow.
He must be so proud! Arse face!!

I'm just not happy this year but that's okay. I will try to have a good Christmas but if I'm sad, then I'm sad.

Looks like H will have the kids on NYE as well.