Not If He Came Gold Plated!

[WenikiTiki]

So today X went to a party with people he works with. He came home with food, and reported the conversation with the wife of the guy who had the party. She told him he was still young, he could get married agiain and start a new family. How darn insulting to me and our children. What, just forget us, start a new family?!?

Okay he is 54! And it makes me want to punch this gal in the face. She also told him that she and her girlfriends would be happy to come over and "cook" for him. What the F ever. Oh wait, until yesterday, I was still cooking for him. Stay out of my kitchen, ladies!

Clearly no one he works with knows I divorced him because of his "being in love" with OW. I don't think they know she exists. I don't know why it bothers me. Maybe because she knows nothing about us, the situation, just that "Poor X" got divorced by his wife. Poor, Poor him......

Yesterday I had quite a meltdown. I told X I am no longer cooking his dinners, buying his darn bananas or watching TV with him. I asked him did OW know about all the time we spent together, and he told me he wasn't going to talk about it. Yes, we won't talk about it. But I refuse to be part of the break-up to make-up games she plays with him. When they fight, he comes back around to me, acting like we are best buddies. And it hurts me. I am tired of him hurting me.

I don't want to be his friend, his substitute mother or his darn housekeeper. He said he wants our relationship to be civil. There is a big difference between civil and housekeeper. From now on I zig when he zags. He is terrified of being alone. Not my problem. I keep reading stuff into his actions. He doen't want to get back together with me. He just hates being alone!

I have no problem being alone. It appears I've been alone for years, I just didn't see it!