Your sound like such a great hearted women. We are both such saps for love and companionship it's crazy to think anyone (in their right mind) would put us through such horrible trials. Does God really not give us more than we can handle?
Your days to come with your H home are going to be trying at best. I pray that he keeps his sh!t to himself and only gives you the best of what you deserve. These mlc'ers here have really got some nerve how the're willing to treat others especially the L of their life.
I feel that when a person, not matter who they are, eventually needs to push on and remove themselves from being abusive and ignorant and just be gone.
I am making almond crescent cookies remembering how I would then roll them in powdered sugar and present them to H, a small plate just for him, no sharing with kids. I never neglected him as some H's say because I became a mom, I always took time to make him be special, be L'ed.
WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG! My H says that to me so much, I have to convince myself he's right, and no amount of changing (hair, makeup) will get him to change, it's his crazy ride. Your H was with you for so long, don't believe for a second, your the bad guy here!!!!!
Yea, we're growing balls alright, my S21 said just that, get some mom, or I will lend you mine because your not getting anywhere being so excepting. That's what I call my new snarky attitude. H hates is, he wants me to stay fragile and sweet, bulls--t!
NOw I am sending you good vibes with your H at home, stay strong, stay cool, stay Nero!
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The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
