Thanks Ruby - I will stay strong and thanks for the wishes. I suppose I need to take the positives in that I have learned, I do get kids at xmas and I do get to spend a little time with W. I am also missing my extended family on W side as we all usually meet up boxing day (nieces/nephews etc). I was pretty close to W family but they have all cut contact (suspect W has been badmouthing me to them like she did all our mutual friends). As you say, back on the DB wagon. You stay strong too and best wishes.

SM13 lol, that cheered me up. I think it must be seasonal depression or something smile. Its funny because I would have expected that where kids are involved they would at least get xmas over with first. I wonder if the plan is to get BD over with before xmas and then start their new year afresh without the LBS........oh I forgot, with my W there was no plan!

Happy holidays:)