Found out that he still wants her in his life.. No matter how I feel, the damage it is doing, my love is dying and my give a damn is almost gone. Christmas is here and we are supposed to be going to the in laws.. Not sure how that is going to work out as he said he wants to talk and make plans. I am so disillusioned right now. I know for myself that I can't live with the OW in my life. Why can't he that he is destroying our marriage? The damage that he is doingoes absolutely kills me inside? Is he that selfish? The ultimatum did nothing but make him not talk to me, furious, and now he is punishing me. Why do I get all the crap and feel like no matter what I do , I am punished for my actions, thoughts and feelings?
