Got up this morning. Went to the gym. Came home took a shower. Talked to the girlfriend for a little bit. She has now gone to church with her mother and oldest daughter. I'm looking after the youngest right now.
Because I'm a glutton I checked her facebook and email. She has now started emailing the guy. I figure she thinks it looks less suspicious than when she's on facebook chatting and I walk in and can see she's talking to him. She didn't get to meet up with him last night so now she wants to know his agenda for today. Is it bad that I've been fashioning a bat out of a 2x4 for the last few minutes and in my head already have it planned to be at his house if she goes? At this point I already know it's going to happen and it's going to happen soon. I have got to stop looking. I know it's against the 180 set up and words against actually working on myself.
Another thing that really makes me angry is she's telling him I said stuff and that she said stuff that neither of us said at all. Like she said that I told her "that all ----- wants is to have sex with her" and that she said "well maybe that's all I want to do with him" That was never said. The only thing that was said about him was what I mentioned above. I'm trying my best to do 180's and to some extent I am. This woman is out of her mind. She knows my past and doesn't care what she's doing to me. It just seems really selfish and wrong to do it. To me it seems like it takes an immature person that is not ready for an adult relationship to cheat on their partner. I'm sorry I mean no offense to anyone on the boards who may have cheated and do regret it. I'm just saying I know she will do it and not have any remorse about it.
