You're very early in this acceptance phase. It takes time, don't fight reality.

The holidays do add stress to already stressed situations. All kinds of bad things increase during the holidays, let go and just enjoy the day without pressure or attempts to make it perfect of what it once was.

Don't fight reality.

My advice would be to do different things this year. Cook if that's what you want to do but don't do it because you want W to join in. That's attempting to control and it will probably make her uncomfortable.

Let her go.

I know it's not easy but it's necessary


Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss